at bukas ay monday na naman.

more school, more school and more school. . .

some people would be in the "hay salamat! may pasok na naman bukas" stage. .

sad to say, i was one of those people long jurassic years ago.

well ganun talaga ang mga tao kapag inlubb sa kapwa schoolmate nila. gusto siguro nila araw araw may pasok para araw araw silang magkasama ng mga lubb nila.

kung hindi man araw araw eh mas ok pa sa kanila na may pasok. . bukod pa sa less gastos sa school kesa sa mga date sa mall, eh at the same time may natututunan sila sa classroom. [huh?]

pero ngayung kasali na ako sa mga taong "singles for christ" o kumbaga eh sawi sa pag-ibig, bakante o sadyang gusto muna mapag-isa. . mejo nasho-shock ako sa bilis ng araw ngayon, parang kahapon lang bagong taon pa lang. .

well ganyan siguro talaga. .

kasi sa campus, wala lang. you make chika with your friends, then you go to class, kapag late ka at na-miss mo ang pop quiz ni prof. makokonsensya ka lang ng kalahating araw, tapos back to normal tapos maaalala mu yung ex mu dahil dumaan ka sa paboritong tambayan niyo dati, tapos ok na sana mejo nalilimutan mu na siya tapos bigla mu nalang siya makakabangga sa kung saang sulok ng mundo, ayan siya biglang malambing na hinayupak siya na parang walang nangyare, ayan ka na namang tanga ka na na-fofall ka na naman eh alam mu namang back to friends nalang kayu, tapos ayun. . pagkalipas ulit ng mga ilang oras makakasalubong mu na naman siya kasama naman ngayon yung bagong babaeng pag-aaksayahan niya ng mga niluma ng panahong "teknik" niya sa mga babae. .

masakit tsong!
nasasaktan lang ako.

ayun, pero wala tayung magagawa. .
mahal ko talaga siya ih. .

kahit anu pa sabihin ku sa sarili ku, kapag sunday na. .

di ku pa rin mapigilan isipin kung anu nga ba ang mangyayari kapag nakasalubong ku ulit siya bukas. .

may konting kaba, inis, selos, pero syempre hindi kaila ang SAYA.

sana masabi ku ulit sa sarili kong. .

"yahoo! may pasok na naman bukas!"

i wake up every morning,

hoping that today he'll change,

i check my phone for messages,

wishing he remembered me before he slept.

i get dressed go to class,

hoping today he'll notice my new scent.

i bump into him, i smile,

hoping he will fall for it again.

he smiles back we talk casual,

its like he doesnt remember our past.

he walks away, i wish he'd stay

i wish he comes back to me today.

i look at him from afar,

even at the distance i recognise the way he walks,

even when its dark,

i know its him with the way he talks. .

classes are over its time to go home

friends wave goodbye and i feel all alone.

passing by that big old tree,

where i once kissed someone with the love that is now gone.

i prepare to go to sleep

wishing tonight he thinks of me,

i close my eyes praying tomorrow things will change,

i wake up in the morning and i live yesterday all over again. : [

i love to take pictures.
goofy pictures. serious pictures.
happy pictures. crazy pictures.
its like immortalizing a piece of memory.
i can express what i think on the pictures i take.
like letting other people see what's inside my imagination.

i like to put little twists on my pictures.

im not that good with editing
but i do my best to make it look
the way i want it to look.

so far, this is the most controversial picture i've taken.
especially for cat lovers.
sorry guys, im not into animal brutality or something
but it was all part of learning
anatomy and physiology.

i just wanted to remember that once in my life,

i dissected a cat.

humangin ng malakas. tumirik ang araw. naging mainit. siksikan sa jeep. tagaktak ang pawis. bumaba sa tapat ng campus. malayong lakarin. dumating sa klasrum. nagquiz kaagad. 2 out of 4. nakakaantok. lecture lecture. maraming lecture pa. lumipad ang utak. na-mental block. natapos ang klase. may nadaanang sweet couples. nainggit. nanlamig ang likod. nag-self pity. namiss ang dating karelasyon. naging bitter ng isang minuto. nainis ng isang oras. nagselos. naging kalmado. pinigilang mainis ulet. walang inspirasyon. tinatamad ng kumilos. nawalan ng gana. nag-antay sa matagal na jeep.

nakasakay. nakauwi.

nagkunwaring nagbabasa. lumipad na naman ang utak.
naisip na naman siya. pinigilan ang utak.
natulog nalang. nanaginip. naalimpungatan. nag muni muni.
nalungkot.

sana bukas hindi na.

i went to DV today. many many many as in super many people were there, heat struck in the morning but in the afternoon, the rain showered its presence. sobrang init, biglang lamig. aw! headache! there were super nice things to buy or drool over with (if you already ran out of cash to spend). i bought a nice pair of skinny jeans- - -they are back. hotness. such wonderful things for a cheap price. amusing. the only thing that didnt amuse me was when i passed by a couple of sidewalk vendors. it's nice to know that they have a way of making cash rather than to beg for alms from other people or worst, by stealing. well, it's a very sunny-turned-rainy day and i saw a woman with her (just a guess) 2 year old baby boy. the baby was half naked, with no slippers on, very dirty and very thin. the mother was carrying the baby with no care at all. then i saw another baby boy sleeping at the sidewalk while his mom (just beside him) was trying to sell pillow covers. i couldnt help but feel sorry for those babies. such innocent souls should not experience those kind of things. i felt helpless, i wish people from the government would do something about it, though i know there are much more important problems within the country that needs to be settled first. the situation i witnessed today doesn't only happen in Divisoria. it is experienced throughout the world. in a sense, i kinda felt thankful for everything i have right now. the best parents, home sweet shelter, proper education and everything i need to live. i realized that i have to appreciate everything i have, no matter how small or big they are. i'm thankful that God gave me the best parents, though i have not been a very good daughter, they were always there for me, to provide me with all i need.

so for all of you whose reading this right now,

i hope you realized something.

and whatever that something is, i hope it's something good.

joey.